Day 5 Struggles

I don't know if the day is slow, I didn't sleep well, or what, but today is a difficult one. I didn't wake up with the greatest energy and felt a pain in my lower left abdomen all morning. I tried my best to stay hydrated but really didn't want water. So I drank a lemon tea and now I am having black coffee just in case I needed caffeine. But I am feeling very tired, very worn out and a little loopy - not a headache but not quite all there. I wonder if my body is feeling weak from the colonic - even though bad bacteria is taken out, so is good bacteria. I wish I had taken a probiotic when I got home but I was feeling so great I didn't think I needed it. I am feeding my body all of the right things so hopefully this is just a 24 Hour thing. I am having a hard time not reverting back to old habits like snacking on days when I feel like this. I didn't work out and I feel not normal and these are days when my chocolate and grazing and snacking habits come alive. I am so tempted to reach in my drawer and grab an apricot or a larabar but I really want to resist. I am really not hungry so this is obviously hungry from HALT. Steamed fish does not sound good right now so I know I do not need to eat. I think I am just ready for the weekend! I want to go home and make dinner (still haven't decided on that yet) and read all of my new Paleo cookbooks that I bought last week.

I made a meal plan for week #2 and did a FreshDirect order. I have to plan ahead otherwise I will want to take the easy way out and microwave something bad for me. I want to use the Paleo cookbooks for Week #3, #4 and #4.5 so that I am ready for the rest of the program. I just have to sift through the recipes for added sugar like honey, maple syrup, agave, etc. Anything with those ingredients will have to be saved for Week #5. I also need to figure out how to handle Passover, which falls on Day #29. I am hosting it at our new home and my mom is going to help me cook but I need to have some recipes on hand that are Whole30 approved. I guess I should have started Whole30 2 days earlier, Passover would have been such a treat for post-Whole30.

Lunch was salmon cakes and salad, nothing fancy, but delicious. Just trying to get through the next 2.5 hours. I would take a walk but I feel lightheaded and weak. So frustrating to have gone 4 days feeling fabulous only to feel horrible again.